Waiting

In 10 hours from now this will all be over. My mind is restless tonight even though my body is exhausted. This has been a long, tiring, drawn out process. I'm sure at some point I will be able to look back and evaluate the situation and see the good that has come of this and lessons learned but for now I just want some kind of normality. I want to hang out with my wife, spend some time with my girls and basically just do nothing. Keep us in your prayers as we travel over the next few days and thanks to everyone for all of your thoughts and prayers through this whole mess. I love you all :)

Rest

Today I sat with my step mom and planned my biological father's funeral, it was very surreal. All night tonight I have been struggling in my mind praying for peace. I know there is peace now for my younger siblings and step-mom and I feel so much relief for that but I feel I've gone about as far as I can go without facing some of the things I have been avoiding. As I thought and prayed tonight this song came in my head and the words have given me peace. Maybe not ALL the peace I need but definetly the peace I need for now. Now its time to rest. :)

In and out of situations,
That tug-of-war at me
All day long I struggle
For answers that I need
But then I come into His presence,
All my questions become clear
And for a sacred moment,
No doubt can interfere


In the presence of Jehovah,
God Almighty, Prince of Peace
Troubles vanish, hearts are mended,
In the presence of The King


Through His love the Lord provided,
A place for us to rest
A place to find the answers,
In hours of distress
Now there is never any reason,
To give up in despair
Just look away and breathe His name,
He will come and meet you there


In the presence of Jehovah,
God Almighty, Prince of Peace
Troubles vanish, hearts are mended,
In the presence of The King

Unable

My whole life I have always been able to put my thoughts down into word by writing. Tonight I have sit and stared at a blank page unable to do so. I don't know what to think, I don't know what to feel and to be honest, right now I refuse to do either. I will deal with this someday, just not right now.

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