I've Been There

When I was a kid I lived for three things: fishing, hunting and baseball. There was nothing I looked more forward to than doing those things with Dad. He taught me to play baseball (although I think he wondered if I'd ever quit throwing like my mom), he taught me to catch a bass, and taught me to hunt. This was my life, everything revolved around those three things. I remember though as a kid there were times that Dad went on trips that I couldn't go on. Trips to deer camp in Mason, Elk hunting trips in Colorado...these trips devastated me. I didn't understand that while I was getting older and bigger, I still wasn't ready for those kinds of hunts yet. Today I find myself on the other end of this scenario. Since MaKayla was little I have taken her hunting, fishing and taught her every sport she has wanted to learn. She is a good hunting buddy, probably my favorite. However, today I am leaving to Arizona to go on a three day quail hunting adventure and I have to leave her behind. It's going to be a fun but tough three days of hunting. MaKayla is heartbroken that I am not taking her. She cried last night because she doesn't understand that even though she's bigger, she's just not ready for some hunts yet. I'd love for her to be there, I'd love for her to experience the hunt but I know she wouldn't be able to keep up with all the physical demands if she went. This morning as I dropped them off at school and walked them to the gym, she couldn't talk. She couldn't say bye, she couldn't hardly even look at me. Her eyes were full of tears and I'm sure there was a knot in here throat the size of a baseball...I know I've been there. And while it feels like that day will never come I promise eventually the day will be here when my favorite hunting buddy will be right there by my side, heading out on a grand hunting adventure. :)

Pray for my baby girls, pray that Jesus would comfort their hearts and keep them safe while I'm gone. Pray that God would watch over my family while I'm away and that he would keep his hands on me while I travel.

I Can't Believe It!

I can't believe it. 9 years ago today, I was probably in one of the happiest and most confused states in my life. I didn't know how I was going to be a daddy to a precious baby girl but I knew I was going to give it all I had. I can't believe that that baby girl is 9 years old today! It seems like yesterday she was a tiny baby in my arms, looking up at me with eyes that could melt the hardest of hearts. Those eyes are still there, but they are in a much bigger girl now. Time flies so fast, when she was a baby I wanted her to be a little bigger so I could play with her, and now that she's a little bigger I want her to be a baby so I can take care of her forever. I never in a million years could have imagined all the happiness and love that she has brought in my life. She makes me want to be a better person, to be the dad that she thinks that I am. :) When she was little I'd tuck her in and say , "Holler at daddy if you need anything," and not 5 seconds after I'd shut her door and walk down the hall I'd hear, "Daddy I need anything, princess needs you." It seems like a long time since I've heard that little voice holler out as I walk down the hall. While I miss those times and cherish them, I cherish every minute I have with my beautiful princess and thank God everyday that she's mine. Happy Birthday baby girl, I'm so proud of all you are and all that you have become. You are a beautiful, courteous, intelligent loving girl and I love you more than words can say. You are the wind in my sails and my sun on cloudy days. Nothing on earth makes me prouder than being your daddy. Remember if you need anything just holler...Daddy will be right there. ;)
Through the Years

I Need To Slow Down!!!

You know on Star Trek when Captain Kirk says "Warp Speed!" Then out of the front of the ship all the stars start looking like long lines as the ship reaches warp speed then blasts out of sight. Well, that's how I feel right now. My classes this semester are extremely time consuming. I have 9 books to read (and I don't read books). Currently I read 30 minutes from one book, take a 10 min break, then 30 min. of another and so on and so on. I am only reading 4 books right now, but comprehending everything I'm reading is killing me. On top of that I am developing a research study which is more than what I originally bargained for....yuck!!! Tamara's been sick, MaKayla has been clingy, Pam is tearing up the kitchen, tearing down border and repainting and I feel like my head is going to EXPLODE!!!! Sometimes I feel like I'm running a marathon with my eyes closed and can't figure out which way to turn next...I might be heading in the right direction or I might be heading off a cliff, who knows! On top of all of that I scheduled a hunt in Arizona on Jan. 29 so I will be gone January 29-February 2. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm excited about this once in a lifetime opportunity to go on this hunt, the timing is just off right now. Now, I have to do that much more work to not get behind while I'm gone, but if you wanna play I guess you gotta pay. I keep telling myself this is just temporary, when I make it through this semester I will have 6 hours left. 6 hours...I can't believe it. When I started back to school 5 years ago, I felt like this day would never come. It would have been much easier to do this school thing before wife and kids, but I guess you play with the cards you're dealt. We made a plan, stuck to it and we've almost reached our first big goal. I look forward to that, but I can't afford to look ahead, there's too many things that will jump up and smack me in the face right now! I need things to slow down, to calm down...I need to calm down. I need to trust and take this one day at a time...I can do it, I think.


There is cold and then there is COLD!!!! My bones are frozen, my brain hurts and my eyes are fuzzy. (Maybe that's from lying on the couch doing homework and not the cold..hmmm) Anyhow I was watching the weather channel and it is like -36 degrees in Green Bay, WI. Ouch that's cold! In some town in Alaska it was -65 degrees outside. My mom and I were discussing that temp. in Alaska and she said," What do you do when it's that cold outside?" My reply was, "Why do you think Eskimos have so many kids?" HAHA!!! Gotta stay warm somehow!! :) Alright well, my study break is over I have to get back to one of my 9 books I have to read this semester....YUCK!!! Stay warm.

Here's a song to go with this blustery cold day! ;)

New Semester

Well, I started back to school today. I really enjoy school but its always tough to get back in the swing of things. My first class didn't last that long and I have 2 more this afternoon and then 1 tonight, plus there's that stinkin ole web class. 16 hours is not too much but all the classes I'm taking combined, makes for a pretty tough schedule. Not to mention soccer practice, softball practice, meals, homework and being a dad and husband, my schedule feels pretty full. I commit 8 hours a day to school and the rest is divided up amongst everyone else. I enjoy this time but look forward to what God has in store for me in the future. (Only 6 hours to go after this semester!!!) On top of the beginning of a new semester, I am working on a new diet called DASH. It is the Dietary Approach to Stop Hypertension. Lately my blood pressure readings have been a little off and I have been feeling out of sorts so I have changed my diet and that includes no caffeine! Its not too bad besides the horrible brain splitting headaches from not getting my 1000mg of caffeine per day. However on the plus side after just 3 days on the diet my blood pressure readings were better than normal this morning so hopefully I can curve this thing before it gets out of hand. (No matter how in shape you are you can't do anything about your genes!!! Dang it!) Alright well, I've rambled on enough, I need to go grab a quick snack and head to my next class. I have more interesting things to write about but currently am experiencing one of those previously mentioned headaches and I need to get some meds and fast!! Hope everyone has a blessed day! :)

I'm Here, I'm Here!

I'm just too lazy to blog right now. I will in the next day or so though.

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