I Need To Slow Down!!!

You know on Star Trek when Captain Kirk says "Warp Speed!" Then out of the front of the ship all the stars start looking like long lines as the ship reaches warp speed then blasts out of sight. Well, that's how I feel right now. My classes this semester are extremely time consuming. I have 9 books to read (and I don't read books). Currently I read 30 minutes from one book, take a 10 min break, then 30 min. of another and so on and so on. I am only reading 4 books right now, but comprehending everything I'm reading is killing me. On top of that I am developing a research study which is more than what I originally bargained for....yuck!!! Tamara's been sick, MaKayla has been clingy, Pam is tearing up the kitchen, tearing down border and repainting and I feel like my head is going to EXPLODE!!!! Sometimes I feel like I'm running a marathon with my eyes closed and can't figure out which way to turn next...I might be heading in the right direction or I might be heading off a cliff, who knows! On top of all of that I scheduled a hunt in Arizona on Jan. 29 so I will be gone January 29-February 2. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm excited about this once in a lifetime opportunity to go on this hunt, the timing is just off right now. Now, I have to do that much more work to not get behind while I'm gone, but if you wanna play I guess you gotta pay. I keep telling myself this is just temporary, when I make it through this semester I will have 6 hours left. 6 hours...I can't believe it. When I started back to school 5 years ago, I felt like this day would never come. It would have been much easier to do this school thing before wife and kids, but I guess you play with the cards you're dealt. We made a plan, stuck to it and we've almost reached our first big goal. I look forward to that, but I can't afford to look ahead, there's too many things that will jump up and smack me in the face right now! I need things to slow down, to calm down...I need to calm down. I need to trust and take this one day at a time...I can do it, I think.


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