Who I Am

I have written my last paper of the semester (17 pages) and now I have just one final exam to go. I am so ready for summer to be here. I have a lot of projects that I've started and need to get done. Plus it all means that I'm one step closer to that little piece of paper to hang on my wall!!! I think I might want a masters degree......What the heck am I saying I just want to get through the next 3 semesters find a good coaching job and see what happens from there. I must be delirious from all the typing. I better quit before I say something really bad!

Everything I am is because of my wife. She gives me purpose and reason. Our lives together have never been easy but we've made it through each and every step of the way. She is loving, patient, understanding and drop dead gorgeous! She has put up with a lot from me over the years and as we get closer to reaching the next milestone in our life (me finishing school) I just want to let her know how much I appreciate and love her. Here is a song that if I could've written for her I would've. I love you Pam you are my rock and make me who I am, without you none of this would matter.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=1V_vxirlU0U

My semester is almost done. I am chomping at the bits to be done with this semester. I think I will officially be considered a senior starting in the fall so that's cool too. I've finally made it back to the big dog on campus even though I pretty much know no one. Probably by next Tuesday I'll be laying on a beach somewhere in Mexico drinking a cold one and catching some sun. (Or at least in a lawn chair in my back yard, with my feet in a kiddie pool!) :)

I've seen some sad depressing things in my life but none as sad as what I saw a couple of days ago. Tamara and I were working in the back yard digging some holes, picking weeds and stuff like that. It started getting hot so I told Tamara I was going in to get a drink. When I came back out I heard her talking. It sounded like she was talking to someone! So I peeked around the corner to see my baby girl sitting on the ground next to where her kitty was buried just talking to the ground. Telling Jasmine how much she missed her and wished she hadn't died. She said, "I know you're in my heart, but I want you here with me." I was completely floored. I sat and watched her for several minutes, then she kissed her hand and put it on the ground and got up and started digging some more. I went out there and acted like nothing happened cause I didn't know what to say. My heart was broken, I was ready to go get another kitten for my angel and am still not convinced that we shouldn't. All this time she has acted like it hasn't bothered her too much, I guess that is not the case. It is amazing how little minds work, it will never cease to amaze me.

Is life a process or a destination? Why?

I just was sitting and thinking and realized I never wrote a congratulations to my sister and Alex for their recent engagement. I have to be honest, when Amy first told me she was dating Alex a few years ago I wasn't too sure about it. I've always been secretly protective of Amy although I rarely show it. Amy's desires have been no different than ANY girl in this world. From the time she was little she dreamed of a knight in shining armor riding in and sweeping her off her feet. Like most women, she didn't find that knight on the first attempt but she waited and when the time was right God brought him to her. She finally found the man ALL girls dream about and some never find. Over the past three years I have seen two people fall madly in love. It has been far from perfect believe me, I've seen the arguments, but that is no different than any other relationship. With every hardship they have grown stronger and closer and that's what love is all about. Today, Alex has become one of my best friends and someone I can depend on, no longer my sister's boyfriend, but a member of the family. As their wedding fast approaches I am reminded of my own wedding to my beautiful wife and remember how stressful it can all be. To those of you who are married you remember how important each detail seemed and how time seems to fly during this time where it was crawling before. But a wedding is not about dresses, who can come and who can't, when is the showers going to be or "why are we doing it like that", where the ceremony takes place, who's friends with who, or who's feathers get ruffled over silly trivial things. A wedding is a joining of two hearts. It is a sacred bond between those two people and God. Everyone in contact with Alex and Amy should help them enjoy each moment of this process because before long 10 years will have gone by and it will all be a cherished but clouded memory. This is the one time in two people's lives where it is okay to be a little selfish and have things your way, you only got one shot at getting it right. Congratulations to the two of you, may you have a blessed relationships full of happiness and joy. May the good times always out weigh the bad and each day become better than the last. I love you both very much.