I am a person who needs quiet to work most efficiently. I didn't get much school work done over spring break because there wasn't much quiet. Yet now sitting alone in the empty house, quiet doesn't seem so great. All I can hear is the ringing in my ears, the very annoying mockingbird outside and the sound of the wind against the windows. I'd much rather hear laughter, cartoons and footstep running through the house. It seems like I never enjoy anything until its not there. I really need to work on living and being more in the moment, I'm always thinking of my next move...what I need to do next. I need to slow down, I don't want my children growing up and being like me. Yet it's in the quiet when I seem to work best and get closer to God. I guess I'm just a person who needs the quiet. Speaking of...I'm not a person who talks much about what God speaks to me. I often question if the things we hear is God talking or something we are thinking up. Yet the other day I was kinda just praying and going along when there was almost and audible voice that said, "Be Still." It shocked me. Honestly I don't know that I have ever had anything like that ever in my life. Since then I have really been thinking about that. What does "Be Still" mean and what am I supposed to do with it? "Be Still" how? Today as I sit in the quiet and try to work on homework, these words burn in my mind. Maybe I'm making it too complicated, which I frequently do. You know now that I think about it, the quiet is sometimes more disruptive than the noise. Maybe I should go turn cartoon network on or something, I need to get some work done and in the quiet my brain has too much to hear and say. WOW! I'm pretty sure they have medicine for people like me.


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